Connected and Committed

nudges 01.30.07

I am so happy and very grateful for:

*the awesome gloves that keep my hands warm and dry as I clean off the snow and ice from my car windows each morning;

*opportunities to try things out without actually having to commit to them blind, long-term;

*fuchsia - I wore this today and not one person made a comment either way on how bright it was:

*lemon ginger tea;

*my new mug;

*my new drinking glasses, made in Turkey, hefty in my hand;

 

*gratitude, and keeping an open heart so that, like a whale that is feeding, all the good stuff can get filtered in when swathing wide through the universe;

*making love with the divine.What I mean by that is captured very well by Sera Beak: "Andrew Newberg, scientist at the University of Pennsylvania School of Medicine and author of Why God Won't Go Away: Brain Science and the Biology of Belief, has found that spiritual experiences are interwoven with human biology. ..Newberg theorizes that the capacity for mystical experience is actually a by-product of sexual development. Which leads The Red Book to hypothesize that the more sexually aware you are, the higher your potential for divine connection."

More evidence of where ancient wisdom and science meet.

arguing for limitations

Contrast helps you to identify desire. Desire is summoning. It's always flowing through you. You have the opportunity of opening to the harmony of the vibration of your desire or not. As the desires are being summoned through you, and you go with the flow, you thrive, but if you use things to be your excuse for not going with the flow, you are arguing for your limitations. We want to show you how to go with the flow. Which means nothing more than finding vibrational harmony with your own desire, and letting the Universal Energy that your desire is summoning to it flow to it through you. It is optimum creative experience --- Abraham

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Arguing for limitations. I can be very good at that. That's one tool I want to drop from my skill set.

sometimes

Sometimes just by opening up, just by actively intending to sink deeper into your existence, things that no longer fit in your life begin to fall away. Naturally. Softly. Almost unnoticeably. Nothing is resisted; instead, everything is allowed. In this resting place, spirituality becomes less about doing and more about simply being.

The Red Book - Sera Beak

who, what, where and how you be

You can be fully satisfied with where you are, understanding that you're eternally evolving. When you get into that place of feeling appreciation of where you are and of who you are, and appreciation of what you are, and you accept that you are a never-ending, always unfolding Being, then you can stand in that delicate balance of being optimistic about what is to come, without being unhappy about where you stand. Find a way of eagerly anticipating future changes, while at the same time you are in love and satisfied with who, what, where and how you be. --- Abraham

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Today, this is easier.

clenching

When you are in a state of nonacceptance, it's difficult to learn. A clenched fist cannot receive a gift, and a clenched psyche -- grasped tightly against the reality of what must not be accepted -- cannot easily receive a lesson. --Roger John

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Too true, too true.  it's so-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o much easier to move through the universe with an unclenched psyche. Doors open and sunshine flows when it's ready to receive gifts. Frustration and despair rule the day when it's not. I highly recommend the former.

intentions

Our intentions -- noticed or unnoticed, gross or subtle -- contribute either to our suffering or to our happiness. Intentions are sometimes called seeds. The garden you grow depends on the seeds you plant and water. Long after a deed is done, the trace or momentum of the intention behind it remains as a seed, conditioning our future happiness or unhappiness. --Gil Fronsdal

And, as the theory goes, the even impression of that intention remains locked in the fabric of the Zero-Point Field. Why not contribute to the positive amassing, rather than the negative amassing?

kneel at the alter of you

You have to pray from such an honest and open and raw place in yourself that the divine eagerly wants to kneel at the alter of you.

from The Red Book: A Deliciously Unorthodox Approach to Igniting Your Divine Spark by Sera Beak

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I believe the Divine, the Big Ah-ha, does eagerly await the moment we finally find this place in ourselves. It's always there waiting for us to chill out, get a clue, and relax enough into who we really are that we can be playmates once again, like old times.

whale's teeth?

qualia

Everything - matter, energy, you name it - comes from curvatures, patterns and other properties originating at the Planck scale. If consciousness does have some fundamental, irreducible precursor it must originate as some sort of pattern at the same basic level of the universe. Philosophers call the raw components of conscious experience qualia. We're suggesting that qualia are specific patterns or properties at the Planck scale. Why not? If there's something fundamental and irreducible about consciousness or its precursors, as Spinoza and Whitehead said, then it has to exist somewhere. The Planck scale is all there is.

~~Stuart Hameroff, M.D., Professor in the Departments of Anesthesiology and of Psychology, and Associate Director of the Center for Consciousness Studies at the University of Arizona in Tucson

Qualia. How cool is that?!

too funny

Love is a snowmobile racing across the tundra and then suddenly it flips over, pinning you underneath. At night, the ice weasels come.

Matt Groening

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I think this is hilarious, but I really don't believe it. I think Love with a capital L is all around us, all the time, and when we are open to it, we ride chariots through the Italian countryside, being fed grapes by angels. The ice weasels only show up when we close down and the big L has no entry point. Sounds fair and equitable to me.

peak experiences

Don't try to recreate peak experiences. Instead, just accept them as the gift that they are, and don't beat up on yourself for not being able to stay there. Because if you stayed there, they wouldn't be peak experiences. They would be normal, every day in time hum drum boring, experiences. So, savor the peak experiences and compliment yourself upon your achieving of them, and expect more of them, and leave everything else out of the equation. --- Abraham

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On some level, I get this, I really do - but the desire to stay in peak experiences rather than blithely flipping in and out of them is a torture dance I've done to myself for quite awhile. Over the past few weeks however I've noticed that the new standard operating emotional budget stays above a certain flood line, starting at the beginning of the day. When I observe my Oscar the Grouch beginning to peak out from his garbage can lid, I slam the cover down, and he goes away. This is a huge improvement from decades of living in the garbage can. It's beautiful out on the concrete.

contradiction

Your emotion, your indicator of vibration, is indicating the ratio between your currently focused desire and any other belief or thought that you hold about same. When you feel negative emotion, anger about something, or fear... the name of the emotion does not matter, it always means that there is a desire within you that, in this moment, you are contradicting with some other thought. Your emotions are always about your relationship with your own desire, and nothing else. --- Abraham

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I hate it when that contradiction thing happens.

Since I've gotten tight with my Observer (split personalities are oh so hip these days) persona over the last few years, the occasions where something I'm experiencing elicits an emotion in the shallow end of the Emotional Scale, it's like dynamite blowing a excavation hole in me. The contrast between what now is normal operating well-being is huge, and just not wanted anymore. I can see the feeling rising up in my brain (cue chemical release swooshing sound), and know that it means that some belief I hold about myself is  so totally offbase that it's knocking me for a loop.

Stop that.

nothing accomplished

I don't know...is it possible for a politician with what it takes to make it to the top of the pile to truly get something done in DC? I don't know......

catch your heart

There are many things in life that will catch your eye, but only a few will catch your heart...pursue those.

--Michael Nolan

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Something so basic and so simple, yet so difficult with which to follow through.  Of course! Duh! But those tentacles of approval weave deep and thick. Hacking away at them with a machete is not too strong a way to describe how it can feel to divest oneself from their grip.

Every moment, around the world, there is someone staring out the window, lost in thought, pondering what they might be doing if they were able to follow what their heart tells them, if they are still listening, to do with their passions and their time. That cross-roads again - how often does the path of inevitability seem, well, inevitable, and choice, well, that's an option left for celebrities.

Not.   

timeless question

Complaining about anything, holds you in the place of refusing to receive the things you've been asking for. Justifying about anything holds you in the place of refusing to let in the very things that you've been asking for. Blaming someone, holds you in the place of refusing to let in the things that you've been asking for. Feeling guilty, feeling angry, it doesn't matter what you call it, it is a refusal, not a conscious one. You're asking; you can't help but ask. The Universe is yielding; it must yield. It's a big question, folks: why aren't you letting it in? --- Abraham

strands

Maybe DNA strands really look like this.

nudges 1.19.07

I am so happy and grateful for:

*the luxury of paid time off to use as I see fit, like when little man isn't feeling well and needs to stay home from school, and not having to leave lessons plans for a substitute;

*trust, on many levels;

*men who are secure in their masculinity and therefore willing to try new things;

*friends who help me bounce ideas around and narrow down viable/resonating options;

*the knowledge that spring is coming.

authenticity

PISCES (Feb. 19-March 20): Due in part to the relentless barrage of
disguised brainwashing in the form of ads, news, and entertainment,
most people are not themselves an average of 45 percent of the time.
You, however, are currently refuting that scary statistic in style.
Your percentage of being-true-to-yourself is at an all-time high, and
holding steady above the 85 percent mark. Keep up the good work,
Pisces. In fact, take advantage of your momentum to push for even
greater authenticity. Say exactly what you mean even more. Think your
own thoughts even bigger and louder. Exorcise every last one of the
celebrities, entertainers, salesmen, and authorities who have
demonically possessed you.

-Rob Breszny, from today's Free Will Astrology Newsletter

I'm six days away from being a Pisces, on the cusp of the Aries domain, but I think Rob's projections apply to everyone to some degree. Especially this one.

nudges 1.16.07

I am happy and so grateful for:

*finally noticing someone's kindness and generosity in gifting me with a donation on my website - how cool is that?! -  and through the magic of paypal I was able to turn it around immediately and gift it to someone who could use it right now;

*the breathtaking dazzlement that was the sun reflecting and refracting off the ice that covers every blade of grass and every tree branch today;

*remembering I have options (sometimes I forget);

*people in my life who get me and what I am about; it's not necessary for planetary survival, but man, does it make a difference;

*a mattress for my son's loft bed;

*cable internet;

*the soothing sensation of fresh-from-the-dryer sheets;

*the opportunity to learn and practice how to facilitate a really good teleclass - thank you, K!

Something I've Not Done

Something I've not done
is following me
I haven't done it again and again
so it has many footsteps
like a drumstick that's grown old and never been used

In late afternoon I hear it come closer
at times it climbs out of a sea
onto my shoulders
and I shrug it off
losing one more chance

Every morning
it's drunk up part of my breath for the day
and knows which way
I'm going
and already it's not done there

But once more I say I'll lay hands on it
tomorrow
and add its footsteps to my heart
and its stories to my regrets
and its silence to my compass

~from Migration: New and Selected Poems by W.S. Merwin

shades of meaning

"I must be aware of bad things, and guarded about bad things, and I must watch out for bad things by trying to guide myself toward good things." You can't do both at the same time. You can't watch out for bad things, and allow good things at the same time. It is vibrationally not possible. --- Abraham

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Such a subtle shift, which brings you to a totally different paradigm.  Subtlety. That word kept coming up while I was watching the extended interviews in What The Bleep Do We Know. Subtle differences, subtle changes, subtle distinctions.  And on the quark level, that seems very appropriate.

archetypes

I'm reading some Deepak lately, and one of the exercises in his book about fulfilling desires and leveraging the power of the unified field is to identify and invoke the help of the archetypes that resonate with you. I've never really gotten what all the fuss about archetypes is about, until participating in this exercise.   

The one that got my attention the most was trying on this description: "You're a throbbing heartbeat of energy, capable of creating anything you desire. Dive deeply into your light core and emerge as the cosmic alchemist. You're the ultimate magician, capable of turning nothing into something and something into nothingness. You know the world of the senses to be nonsensical. You experience the material world as an expression of your conscious energy, which you can transform into matter with your intention and attention. You can assume any form you choose, living or inanimate, because you are consciousness in all its disguises. You are Krishna, the cosmic alchemist, capable of manifesting anything you choose. Experience yourself transmutting your thoughts into phenomena. See the universe through the eyes of Krishna. Experience the cosmos as your body. You are not in the universe; the universe is in you."

Yeah, baby. Forget the seductress, or the paragon of wisdom, or the crone - I want THAT.

Googling Krishna, I find how he is usually known in a slightly more pejorative way than Deepak's affectionate term for him:

"Trickster is the teacher - when you attract lessons into one's life. With his lessons, he awakens us to who we are and allows us to explore the true purpose of our soul's journey in the holgraphic experience through which we experience conscousnly [sp?] at this level of awareness.

His energy allows us to break out of old stereotypes, whether they've been imposed by ourselves, our families, our culture, or circumstance. This is the energy that opens the world of limitless possibilities and it behooves us all to work with it before it destroys us, to touch the Trickster as he touches us.

Trickster is a teacher, survivor, hero, always traveling, outrageous and cunning, foolish and wise, mischievous and often doing good despite himself. He is a metaphor for the evolution of consciousness in the alchemy of time."

The suggestion in Deepak's book is to start collecting images of two or three archetypes that resonate with you, and to gather them in a place that could be a personal alter or shrine, and begin communing with these images to gain their support in their aspects manifesting themselves in you more fully, since there is something about them that draws you to them in the first place.

Here's one:

Makes me think of Oscar Wilde, for some reason. Who was quite a trickster, if I'm not mistaken.

Then there is the blue version (I like the line and texture here):

The grey version (very carnival-like):

and the doll version:

I would SO get one of those for my personal alter. Krishna is on the left - his partner in all things cosmic is on the right, I'm assuming, but I could be wrong.

I think I will make a business card for myself that reads cosmic alchemist - one for the alter, and one to carry - how cool an avocation is that?

This image is the one I like the most from my surfing this evening:

"This is the energy that opens the world of limitless possibilities and it behooves us all to work with it before it destroys us, to touch the Trickster as he touches us."

Doors close, so others can open.

the landscape will change

Writing this boring crap and drawing ineptly have become fun and something I feel an actual need to do. So if I haven't written page after page of crackling, witty insight and my drawings look like they were done by a monkey ..., sue me. Maybe one day, I'll do better. Maybe not. In the meantime, I like this, it makes me better to myself, makes me reconsider a lot of things in my life, makes me take some risks and open some doors. This new path is too short for the view to be different from where I was except in my fantasies, so rather than dash them, I shall continue down it, and the landscape will change.

~ from Everyday Matters: A New York Diary by Danny Gregory

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You can count on it.

on display

 

nudges 1.14.07

I am so happy and grateful for:

*the contact to join an art swap that is opening my mind up to the possibilities of getting my art (what I create, how I think, my world view) out in the world in ways that are fun and satisfying to me, as well as connecting with the people who are looking for what I do;

*the opportunity to watch the quantum, rabbit-hole version of What the Bleep Do We Know (thank you, T) and feel another cha-ching, a lowering of the floor another notch, another few puzzle pieces in a wooden puzzle snapping into place;

*36 continuous hours to myself, to follow my bliss in whatever form or direction that may take me, to recharge my batteries, to rest, to not even go out to the mailbox if I don't feel compelled to;

*computers and cell phones and the internet, making the world a very small, navigable place indeed, with possibilities for communication on many levels;

*music that opens up my heart and soul and plays me like a violin, strings vibrating to high heaven;

*my ability to grasp an idea and run with it, rather than hold back, or not even acknowledge it. This propensity can also be annoying as hell (man, can we just take a break here, universe?), but not very often.

nudges 1.12.07

I am so happy and very grateful for.........

*the modified emotional perception in the crude oil world that allows the price to fluctuate, this time in the consumer's favor;

*the latest Abraham-Hicks CD, recorded in Buffalo NY - holy smokes does the material resonate with me;

*how truly sublime my life is these days. Events, circumstances, conversations, material things and emotional states are just flying off the shelf to me like the huge-magnet-encased -in-skin that I am;

*the absolutely fabulous librarian who took it upon her or himself to cancel out an overdue status on an item I still have, and delete the fines along with it, and renew the item - WITHOUT MY EVEN BEING AROUND TO ASK;

*much as I can find to take exception to in this culture, I appreciate the opportunity to move about at my whim, without personal identification restriction, without gender restriction, without material means restriction;

*the fact that Typepad just saved my post even though the session had timed out and I had to login again, assuming my unsaved text would be lost;

*people who carry joy in their hearts and share it with me.

the buffalo

Cybermarketing subject line:

"If anything happens to the lead buffalo, or if he makes a wrong decision, the res..."

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Heaven help us if the lead buffalo should make the wrong decision.

nudges 01.10.07

A new category of blog post.

I've often read of the value in writing down at the end of the day a predetermined number of things for which one is grateful. Conjuring gratitude then becomes a tool with which to harness the power of abundance, joy, and all that good stuff, and funnel it into your life.

So I'm going to do that here. Maintaining this blog is an inspiration to me, and it seems quite fitting to use it as the repository of my gratitude.

I have to say that my gratitude abilities have only blossomed in recent years.

I used to suck at being grateful.

But now that I get it at a level I never thought I would attain, so I want to practice and embed it in my psyche.

Another facet of this challenge is the desire to document examples of synchronicity in my life. Or nudges from the universe that say here, try that. They happen so often now I'd like to follow the trail of where they come from and where they lead, after the fact.

I'm not going to force myself to adhere to an ironclad rule to write a certain number each day. My hackles seem to get raised by mandates like that, so I'm not going to do it.

Here we go.

*I am grateful for the kindness of the person I bought my son's loft bed from on craigslist, who drove it to my house for me rather than my arranging for another way to haul it on a later date.

*I am grateful for the nudge to stop by the Salvation Army in the part of town where I buy my organic meat so I could take home the perfect piece of furniture at 50% off.

*I am grateful for the nudge to stop at the bookstore near the Salvation Army. I was looking for a hard copy of the Chopra book I've been listening to on cd. The clerk looked in the database and it said they had a copy, but it was nowhere to be seen on the shelf. The clerk left me to look around. After a few minutes I was on my way out the door, when he came back with the book in his hand, saying that it had just come in today.

*I am grateful for friends in my life who are open to, nay, perhaps as driven as I, to apply insights they learn about themselves in their day-to-day lives, and grow from the new experience. These people inspire awe in me, for how powerful we all are when we want to be.

TUT

Just because you can have it all, Debra, doesn't mean there's something wrong with you until you do. To the contrary, the simple fact that you stand before such infinite possibilities, irrefutably means that you are one bad mamma jamma. That's a good thing. Tallyho,     The Universe

trajectory

When you talk about what you want and why you want it, there's usually less resistance within you than when you talk about what you want and how you're going to get it. When you pose questions you don't have answers for, like how, where, when, who, it sets up a contradictory vibration that slows everything down. --- Abraham

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And, I would argue, what puny excuses for results our mortal brains might come up with pale in comparison to what the universe has cooked up for us, waiting in the wings, the trajectory of possibility affected by our choices in how we feel and what we allow or disallow in any moment. Bah. I'm starting to sound like the people I read. Guess I've internalized it to the point where I own it now.

It's mine.

Always was.

Just more so.

And besides. Thinking and talking about WHY is so much more fun than focusing on the other w's of journalism, and the dreaded h - there is no sexy way to combine them into one acronym. Lining up the mighty powers of intention by creating a Joy Puller, putting it somewhere you will see it, focus on it, dwell on its thrilling quality during the day, rather than lack of it in your life - it's right around the corner, waiting for the "Go live" signal in our hearts, tipping the scales.

Oh stop. I want to puke.

But really.

harnessing

"In the end, there is only one, exuberant, abundant, eternal, rhythmic, inseparable I."

--from The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire: Harnessing the Infinite Power of Coincidence by Deepak Chopra

train

"...the antics of the mind are slightly amusing, as it jumps up and down and twists this way and that, trying to get your attention and seduce you into the game. To develop the knack of taking a distance from the mind  is one of the greatest blessings. It is what meditation is all about really - not chanting a mantra, or repeating an affirmation, but just watching, as if the mind belongs to someone else. You are ready to take this distance now, and to watch the show without getting caught up in the drama. Indulge yourself in the simple freedom of Turning In whenever you can, and the knack of meditation will grow and deepen in you."

from "4 - Turning In" Zen Osho Tarot Card commentary

sequins

There is no condition that you cannot modify into something more, any more than there is any painting that you can paint and not like and just paint over it again. There are many limiting thoughts in the human environment that make it feel like it is not so, as you have these incurable illnesses, or these unchangeable conditions. But we say, they are only "unchangeable" because you believe that they are --- Abraham Hicks

DNA tinkertoys

cybermarketing

Howard said that was fine then and he didn't feel so bad about it.

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Isn't that nice of them to let me know?