I've been detoxing.
You may have bumped into the ten-day detox cleanse that's been zooming around the blogosphere and other places lately. Well, I was smitten when I first read about it, and a few weeks later was doing it myself. What sold me was the overwhelming consensus as to how good you can feel while doing this thing. I wanted some of that.
And I got it. The load that's taken off your body and your system by not chewing solid food is incredibly freeing - if you are allergic to certain foods and don't know it, you'll soon find out doing the cleanse. And no cooking for ten days! Woo hoo!
Another fringe benefit is the temporary weight loss - I don't own a scale so I'm not sure where I am in that department, but the way my clothes fit me lets me know that I'm lighter, in more ways than one.
What I didn't bargain for during the whole experience was the emotional angle. The accounts that I had read on other people's blogs included snapshots of whatever private hell or irritation they went through on particular days, but these women were dealing with some very specific and singular issues that don't apply to the public at large.
Emotions did come up for me, and since there was no distraction factor available from food, they were able to hang around the kitchen table and chat rather than be delegated to the cellar. My higher self showed up too, and helped me see that these feelings were powerless when I chose for them to be.
I got accustomed to observing them come up, and then diminish. They stood in puny relief compared to their original configuration, sort of like the Wicked Witch of the West meeting her demise.
Only with these buggers, I know they will never totally disappear. And that's OK. As long as I maintain the perspective that puts me in the alpha male position, we're good.
As a result, as I transition back into consuming the food that I choose, I am way into dropping stories that I've been telling myself for decades, about myself, and about other people. And replacing them with questions.
I'm a big fan of Byron Katie, and her set of questions to turn around a mindset are a great example of how to jump-start a shift. Take a situation that bugs you on whatever scale, and enjoy the investigation:
1. Is it true?
2. Can you absolutely know that it's true?
3. How do you react when you think that thought?
4. Who would you be without the thought?
Then there is the Sedona method:
1. Could you allow this feeling to be here?
2. Could you welcome this feeling?
3. Could you let this feeling go?
4. Would you?
5. When?
Perhaps the best question of all I've run into lately is one a friend shared with me - apply liberally, "Why do I love my life so much?", and see where you are in a few weeks' time, on even the toughest of justified positions.
I put a personal spin on this one, and came up with a question that resonated even more strongly for me. "How awesome is it, already being chosen?" I had a story going that I wasn't - choosable, that is. Digging around a little deeper, I discovered that this had so much more to do with my perception of any past chooser than it ever did with me.
I'm already chosen by the universe - it has supplied me with ample proof that I have nothing to prove to anyone.
Especially me.
Which leaves me with another possible alternative.
I choose myself.
What a novel idea.
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