Connected and Committed

daisies

employment or bondage?

"Is it an employment "opportunity" or bondage? Because what you really want is freedom, many of you equate working for other people as bondage, but if you would realize that the corporation, as an entity, is not so different from the individual, it might be easier to understand the employer's decisions. Long before the buildings or the workers, the visionary of the corporation had an idea for something that began summoning Energy. So years later maybe you are hired as a part of that team, and without realizing it you are now the beneficiary of that continuing flowing Energy. When you step into one of those employment positions, Life Force is summoned through you because of the vision of the founder--unless you're bucking the current. Most get into that fast moving stream and paddle against the current--and then complain about it being a hard ride--where they could get into their canoe and easily paddle with the fast moving current. You can soar and thrive in any environment as long as you are not seeing things that you are using as your reason to paddle against the current. And so, it doesn't really matter what others are deciding. The questions is: "As I am choosing to stand here, it's a way for dollars to flow through me in exchange for the effort I am offering. Am I predominantly letting the Energy flow through me, or not? Am I letting it in?" --- Abraham

to cable, or not to cable, that is the question

I've been thinking about cancelling my cable TV portion of being plugged into the cultural grid. And then, this morning, the modem appears to have burned itself out. Is this a sign that yes, you should take that money and do something else with it that doesn't feel like fingernails on the chalkboard of your soul? I think so.

blue

almost July

in optimism there is magic

We're asking you to trust in the Well-being. In optimism there is magic. In pessimism there is nothing. In positive expectation there is thrill and success. In pessimism or awareness of what is not wanted, there is nothing. What you're wanting to do is redefine your relationship with the Stream. We do not ask you to look at something that is black and call it white. We do not ask you to see something that is not as you want it to be and pretend that it is. What we ask you to do is practice moving your gaze. Practice changing your perspective. Practice talking to different people. Practice going to new places. Practice sifting through the data for the things that feel like you want to feel and using those things to cause you to feel a familiar place. In other words, we want you to feel familiar in your joy. Familiar in your positive expectation, familiar in your knowing that all is well, because this Universe will knock itself out giving you evidence of that Well-being once you find that place. --- Abraham

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Yes, ineedy it does knock itself out. And I'm starting to want to know about what it takes to be on the events and circumstances committee that arranges all of that, cuz even though we here on this plane are supposedly on the leading edge, being able to function as a sort of Julie McCoy of vibrational escrow accounts for humanity - how much fun would THAT be?

trivet fossil

if there is air

if there is light,
you cannot resist the window through which it
lays its beams on you. if there is air,
do not be a fool and ignore your very lungs.
it doesn't matter how, or where or why.
you must love any which way you can.

papayamaya

umbrella

nudges 06/27/07

I am so happy and very grateful for:

1) The momentum that shoots out and takes me for rollercoaster rides when I least expect them, even when I try to hang on to the side rails;

2) A break in the heat, accompanied by thrilling thunder and torrential rain - very interesting to witness inside a building lined with windows and a metal roof

3) The opportunity to test my abilities in design in a back-door sort of way;

4) Learning what friendship really means.

unpredictable magic.

FREE WILL ASTROLOGY
Week beginning June 28
Copyright 2007 by Rob Brezsny
http://FreeWillAstrology.com

ARIES (March 21-April 19): Welcome to Part Two of your outlook for the
second half of 2007, Aries. We're checking up on how you're progressing
with the long-term tasks you were assigned six months ago. I hope that
by now you're seeing how much you have to learn. This has been and will
continue to be an ideal time to act like a student in every phase of
your life. But I also hope you've started to realize how much you have to
offer as a role model, mentor, and guide. Amazingly, this is a year when you
can generate unpredictable magic as both a student and a teacher.
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LOVE the unpredictable magic. Bring it on.

dreamstate

See, I love how this stuff works. You start somewhere, anywhere, but preferably where you are, with the intent to move, to grow, to change, to expand, and you seed the path with what feels like sunshine, like a supernova of energy, like the sludge that's still sticking to you, and then a shift happens. Sometimes it's small, sometimes it's a huge cumulative thing that pulls joy through you like so many orgasms of light.

This book I've been inhaling, Eat, Pray, Love - before I fell asleep last night, I had an image suddenly in my head, and in my heart, of doors flinging themselves open, in front of the people who were my soul mates in the past, the ones who had gifts to give me at the time and it's taken me this long to see them for what they were (see previous post where Richard the Texas Yogi explains this phenomenon in a way only he could). It was sort of like a horror movie, the intensity with which these doors flew open, but the energy flowing from them was all good, out into the universe of crystal blue and slow motion joy.

Diggin' that.

the mother of all vortexes

Your happiness is the most significant contribution that you could make. In your reaching for happiness, you are opening a vortex which makes you an avenue for the Well-being to flow through you. And anything that is your object of attention under those conditions, benefits by the infusion of your Well-being. --- Abraham

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Especially me. It's all about me.

mending in three places

love with a capital L

"Big deal. So you fell in love with someone. Don't you see what happened? This guy touched a place in your heart deeper than you thought you were capable of reaching. I mean you were zapped, kiddo. But that love you felt, that's just the beginning. You just got a taste of love. That's just limited little rinky-dink mortal love. Wait until you see how much more deeply you can love than that. Heck, Groceries--you have the capacity to someday love the whole world. It's your destiny. Don't laugh."

"I'm not laughing." I was actually crying. "And please don't laugh at me now, but I think the reason it's so hard for me to get over this guy is because I believed David was my soul mate."

"He probably was. Your problem is you don't understand what that word means. People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that's holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then they leave. And thank God for it. Your problem is, you just can't let this one go. It's over, Groceries. David's purpose was to shake you up, drive you out of that marriage that you needed to leave, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light could get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you had to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master and beat it. That was his job, and he did great, but now it's over. Problem is, you can't accept that this relationship had a real short self life. You're like a dog at the dump, baby--you're just lickin' at an empty tin can, tryin' to get more nutrition out of it. And if you're not careful, that can's gonna get stuck on your snout forever and make your life miserable. So drop it."

"But I love him."

"So love him."

"But I miss him."

"So miss him. Send him some love and light every time you think about him, and then drop it. You're just afraid to let go of the last bits of David because then you'll really be alone, and Liz Gilbert is scared to death of what will happen if she's really alone. But here's what you gotta understand, Groceries. If you clear out all that space in your mind that you're using right now to obsess about this guy, you'll have a vacuum there, an open spot--a doorway. And guess what the universe will do with that doorway? It will rush in--God will rush in--and fill you with more love than you ever dreamed. So stop using David to block that door. Let it go."

..."All right, Richard, that's enough," I say. "I don't want you walking around inside my head anymore."

"Shut the door, then," says my big Texas Yogi.

from Eat, Pray, Love: One Woman's Search for Everything Across Italy, India and Indonesia by Elizabeth Gilbert

man's search for metaphor

The problem is--what to worship, whom to pray to?

I have a dear friend whose first child was born right after his beloved mother died. After this confluence of miracle and loss, my friend felt a desire to have some kind of sacred place to go, or some ritual to perform, in order to sort through all the emotion. My friend was a Catholic by upbringing, but couldn't stomach returning to the church as an adult. ("I can't buy it anymore," he said, "knowing what I know.") Of course, he'd be embarrassed to become a Hindu or a Buddhist or something wacky like that. So what could he do? As he told me, "You don't go cherry-picking a religion."

Which is a sentiment I completely respect, except for the fact that I totally disagree. I think you have every right to cherry-pick when it comes to moving your spirit and finding peace in God. I think you are free to search for any metaphor whatsoever which will take you across the worldly divide whenever you need to be transported or comforted. It's nothing to be embarrassed about. It's the history of mankind's search for holiness. If humanity never evolved in its exploration of the divine, a lot of us would still be worshipping golden Egyptian statues of cats. And this evolution of religious thinking does involve a fair bit of cherry-picking. You take whatever works from wherever you can find it, and you keep moving toward the light.

from Eat, Pray, Love: One Woman's Search for Everything Across Italy, India and Indonesia by Elizabeth Gilbert

mantra

Stop bargaining with yourself about who you are.

Debra Schanilec

fish

It's impolite.

if not now, when?

Now would be an excellent time to start.

-- Alan Cohen

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Right now. Change my mind, change my behavior, right now. I know there is no value in how I have been thinking based on how I feel, so I need to drop it. Like a dog, with something in his mouth that he knows he shouldn't have.

D r o p i t.

trumpet flower

eat, pray, love

It was in a bathtub back in New York, reading Italian words aloud from a dictionary, that I first started mending my soul. My life had gone to bits and I was so unrecognizable to myself that I probably couldn't have picked me out of a police lineup. But I felt a glimmer of happiness when I started studying Italian, and when you sense a faint potential for happiness after such dark times you must grab onto the ankles of that happiness and not let go until it drags you face-first out of the dirt--this is not selfishness, but obligation. You were given life; it is your duty (and also your entitlement as a human being) to find something beautiful within life, no matter how slight.

from Eat, Pray, Love: One Woman's Search for Everything Across Italy, India and Indonesia by Elizabeth Gilbert

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I've been reading this book this week. I didn't want to read it when it first came out last year, when everyone I knew was reading it, when it was hot.

And I love that I'm reading it now while I am trolling for new dream team members. While I am enjoying the effects of the introduction of my loft bed to my living space, immensely. There is a time for everything, and the time to devour this book is now.

The first section is the Italian of the triumverate of Gilbert's journey, at least the part of it that she shares with us in this book. I find my synapses that are wired for Italian food, the language, the light, the countryside--they are firing mightily. Just like they did when I read Heat by Bill Buford last fall.

The filters and personal proclivities and schema that are uniquely me are nowhere more engaged and humming through my veins than when steeped in descriptions of the Italian experience. I realize that this happens with everyone, just substitute different combinations of topics. For some it is in a duck blind in fall. For others, it happens when canoeing quietly on a pristine lake early in the morning. For some it involves a martial art or two. Ireland seems to rev up the fancies of quite a few. Whatever floats your boat, I say more power to you. As long as you float that boat. Don't leave it languishing, turned over and hardly prepared for an excursion, killing the grass underneath it.

This affinity I have for all Italian, all the time--I have no idea what to do with it. It catches me off-guard sometimes with its ferocity. I remember coming across a print in a Pier One store a long time ago, of a Mediterranean scene that literally took my breath away, it brought back such primal longing for the time in my life when I looked out on some such ocean view myself.

The solution for that one was easy - buy the print. Two of them. One for my classroom and one for my home.

But you can't own a feeling, you can't lock it down and conserve it for later. I no longer own those prints of the seascape, and I'm not sure that if I saw them again that they would invoke the same reaction from me. And that's OK - I understand that this vibrational alignment stuff fluctuates and expands to fill and populate the universe at any given moment with diversity.

However. I do not presently live in Italy, and probably won't be anytime soon. Again, that's OK, I just don't know what to do with the pull it has for me. But part of the fun is in the figuring out. I am oh-so-grateful for the joy it pulls through me when it does pull that I can't find reason for complaint or annoyance. It just is.

explosion

Who am I NOT to be?

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." - Marianne Williamson

This quote, the authoring of which is often
misattributed to Nelson Mandela, has been on my mind lately.

I've been thinking about it because dreams coming true
in my experience at an amazing rate during this last stretch
of sand through the hourglass requires that replacements be found.

The proverbial bucket is getting proverbially dry.

Well, that's not necessarily true. I don't NEED to replace my old
dreams with new ones.

Whatever.

And based on my beliefs about how the universe works,
any new dream that I conjure will have a pretty good
shot at attaining worldly form. So I am in hyper-awareness mode
as to just what these new dreams might be.

I want resumes on them. I want references. I want
background checks. Cuz people, I don't want just any
ol' dream on my team anymore.

Which brings me to Marianne's quote, the part about
being powerful beyond measure. That's freaking me out
a little bit right now, because my inner knowing tells
me that it's true.

And my puny-acting-on-its-own mortal persona knows it, too.
For example, at the moment I am being paid to write for a living and that
writing gets published to reach millions of people. Not exactly
in the manner in which I had envisioned, but that's not really
any of my concern.

If I objectively consider what it is about this job that jazzes me,
it's those qualities that the universe took upon itself to make manifest,
rather than the paltry wishlist I tenaciously held onto for decades, that
make it the dream job that it is.

So any dream successor candidate that floats across my
consciousness has some big jazzed-ness boots to
fill. And that deepest fear thing, I've been observing that mortal persona
part of me allowing it to cause some occasional hesitation in
recruiting the newest members of my dream team.

Analysis paralysis, delusions of grandeur,
perfectionist standards - these inner critics and censors
all have graced the judges' table for a moment or two. But
they've also politely been thanked for their services in the past and
relegated to the nosebleed seats.

There's a new sheriff in town doin' the choosin'. And
it's OK if it takes me awhile to assemble a new cast
of characters. Like so many other things in this
lifetime, it's not exactly the wait that was worth it,
it was the lessons learned along the way, that made
that thing waited for, that much sweeter when it
finally did arrive.

Changing one's mind based on new data, even in midstream, is good.
Refining, even on an hourly basis, what makes my heart sing is not fickle,
it's mandatory. Have you noticed how many options there are out there?

However, I have developed a new set of criteria that these new dreams
have to meet in order to make the cut after the interview:

1) Do you cause the curve of a smile to appear on my face
when I ponder you?
2) Do you make me giggle with glee when I picture you in My Life, The Movie?
3) Does thinking about you provide a slow, simmering accumulation
of anticipation, as opposed to an explosive sugar high?
4) How exactly will I feel awesome when you happen?

Because after all, who am I NOT to?

the benefit of certainty

Last night three gentlemen contacted me via Plenty of Fish, a free dating site, from which I have had very little communication since I posted my profile awhile ago. So last night was a little bizarre, but interesting, in its abundance.

Each situation presented me with an issue that I have dealt with in the past and could choose to do so again, but - nah. The first one lives in a cool college town an hour and a half from here, where many members of my tribe probably live and I would love living there. However, no more long distance relationships, unless the guy flies me in every weekend! I liked how he communicated - his email said - "You're so far away." That was it. I replied that yes, that sucked, that I had been in a few LDRs and they seemed to promote an unrealistic view of the person and the relationship, and he wrote back saying the same thing, and bummer. That was cool.

The second one was from someone who wrote very little about himself in his profile and wanted to talk on the phone, right away, with nothing to go on and nothing to give me an idea of whether or not I'd WANT to talk to him on the phone. He has two sons with Asperger's, which was an interesting lead-in, but the weirdness around his communication style made my decision for me.

The third seemed intelligent enough, but he also lives an hour and a half away, and with the photo he included of him carrying a protest sign in a march somewhere and from the quote he chose to put in his first email to me that included the words "protest" and "conformity", I knew that his political beliefs would not have room for my non-protest, leading-by-example kind of non-conformity.

It might look like I'm being picky from the outside, but on the inside it feels like liberation, from making excuses for people in their inappropriateness for me, and in doing the female thing of giving everyone the benefit of the doubt. It felt great to give myself the benefit of the certainty, in trusting my intuition and saving myself from unnecessary heartache.

what are you planning?

Whatever you're thinking about is literally like planning a future event. When you're worrying, you are planning. When you're appreciating you are planning...What are you planning? --- Abraham

you always have options

Sometimes, it's easy to forget that you always have options, Debra.

That your power has remained intact.

And that everything, up until now, has just been practice for the really, really good stuff.

Tallyho,
The Universe

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This is the one with in-depth visualization guidelines, easy belief-alignment techniques, and the 3 steps anyone can follow to get unstuck...

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Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ®
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You always have options, Debra.

sitting ducks

This is how comfortable in my skin I want to be - giving it not a thought to sit underfoot a flotilla of parked automobiles and near swiftly moving ones.

zenzibar

"Human salvation lies in the hands of the creatively maladjusted." - Rev. Martin Luther King, Jr.

"If you follow your bliss, you put yourself on a kind of track that has been there all the while, waiting for you, and the life that you ought to be living is the one you are living. Wherever you are, if you are following your bliss, you are enjoying that refreshment, that life within you, all the time." - Joseph Campbell

"A great many people think they are thinking when they are just rearranging their prejudices." - William James

"Never underestimate the power of very stupid people in large groups."
- John Kenneth Galbraith

"Life is a whim of several billion cells to be you for a while." - Unknown

"Nobody realizes that some people expend a tremendous amount of energy merely to be normal." - Albert Camus

"Freedom is actually a bigger game than power. Power is about what you can control. Freedom is about what you can unleash." - Harriet Rubin

"Do it big or stay in bed." - Larry Kelly

Thanks to Zenzibar Collection of Quotes.

pluck the fruit

Take the worthiness that is yours, and let the Fairies of the Universe assist you. Stop taking so much responsibility upon yourself, and live happily ever after. Shorten that crevasse between where you are and where you want to be, on every subject, to now, now, now, now, now. Ride the wave. Just pluck the fruit. You don't have to be the one who puts it in the ground any more. You can just skip across the top of things and pluck the fruit of all of the things you want. Oh, fruit. Oh, delicious this, delicious this, delicious this, delicious this. In other words, it's all right there for you; it's ready for you to receive it as fast and as soon as you will vibrationally let it in. --- Abraham

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Ive been thinking about this since it was posted yesterday on the Abraham site. Along with the notion that my dreams-that-are-yet-to-be manifest bucket needs refilling. So many have come true here lately that I am scanning the horizen for new ones. Or more old ones that I have forgotten about.

you have a nice time

More MySpace spam:

Hello Babie
How are you doing there , I hope you are okay there. My name is Michael. i am 46 years old from Utah,Sandy city in USA , I just went through your file , I saw your profile I was acquinted by you profile , I was highly impressed and deadly gorgeous , You're so cute and Prettylady , I would like to know more about you ,As I can see that your physical appearance is so beautiful , It's make me feel that your emotional and deeply inside would be adorable , I really admire the way you look so much ..I'm here to look for the right one for me a commitment relationship on here , That's would favour and concered my discomfort from my ex-lovers that died five years ago ,I'm easy going man , Honest and trustworthy ,Loyal and obedient to my love once ,I'm caring and friendly , Open minded and tendernesss, i will really like to hear back from you soon ... I would be looking to hear from you pretty soon.You can send me an email . i am also on yahoo chat now you can talk to me,my id is mdm3196
private email address mdm31960@yahoo.com or msn
You have a nice time and bye for now.
michael

Somehow, I don't think the person who wrote that looks like this:

It's possible, but not likely.

nudges 06.20.07

I am so happy and very grateful for:

1) my new personal cave - I decided strings of lights would be distracting and defeat the purpose of the ambience - candles and tea lights are groovy, though;

2) gorgeous, gorgeous weather today - oh, it was difficult to return to work after my retail foray at lunch;

3) noting evidence of the influence of my presence in my new work space - camraderie and good vibes abound;

4) Medical professionals who have performed procedures on themselves to understand what their patients go through;

5) Getting home late afternoon rather than early evening, and having all that time to do whatever I choose.

blow your own mind

FREE WILL ASTROLOGY
Week beginning June 21
Copyright 2007 by Rob Brezsny
http://FreeWillAstrology.com

ARIES (March 21-April 19): We're almost halfway through 2007. It's time
to take inventory of how well you're capitalizing on this year's unique
opportunities. So let me ask you, Aries: Have you been making
reconnaissance missions into previously forbidden territory? Are you
seeking adventures beyond the borders of your known world? I hope so. I
hope you're blowing your own mind on a regular basis, both by exposing
it to ideas it has never dared to entertain and by seeking out exotic
experiences it has no precedents for.

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Ha! He has no idea.

the friend zone

Read this on GEORGE!: and even though it's not funny if you're in one of these, the stereotype from afar is kind of amusing:

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Ah the friend zone, how I love you so. We’ve all been stuck in it, I’ve written about it before, there is even a pretty decent movie all about the friend zone. (”Just friends” if you’re wondering, check it out.) I read a pretty funny quote not too long ago, not to quote exactly, because I can’t find it anymore, but the scenario is something like this:

A male and a female are close friends. It could be for years or just a few months or weeks even. He is most definitely interested in her. After all you hear all of this bullshit from your friends who are currently in relationships, “He’s my best friend and I couldn’t love it more.” Or something along the lines of, “We were such good friends beforehand, then one day I just realized it was meant to be.” Well let me tell you, today is not your day. Right now? You’re just a friend, good luck getting much more than a peak at her ass when she bends over to pick up her purse. You can’t get out of it, you’re stuck. “You’re an AWESOME (always the emphasis) friend, I love everything about you, we’re just better off as friends.” AKA. “I’m really vulnerable right now and don’t want to take the easy way out. I’d like to make some mistakes in my life and really need to be treated like shit. You can’t provide that for me right now.”

You could compare this situation to going to a great job interview. You are making them laugh, you haven’t stuttered once, maybe you even brought up how good of a cook you are would be willing to do a pot-luck. (personal experience) Anyway, near the end of the interview, the employer just lays it all out there.

“You know, you’re a great candidate. You’re very qualified and fill all of our needs. We’re not going to hire you though, we’re going to go a different direction with this one. That different direction could be an alcoholic, or someone who shows up to work 15-30 minutes late everyday. We’ll probably regret our mistake and constantly compare them to your resume. Hell, we’ll probably even call you to complain about how bad they were and then remind you how good of a candidate you are.”

Then when they actually do let them go, they’re in a “hiring freeze” or “we just aren’t accepting new applications.” Meaning, “I am really hurt and the only thing that could help me right now is going out to dance with my girls and possibly make some more bad decision.” Or, “I’m thinking about becoming a lesbian.”

And I’ll be there to tell them how good of an idea that is. Time after time.

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and a reader was brilliant enough to point out:

"Of course, there is the male version of the 'only friends' role. But it's termed 'fuck buddy.' They’ll call you, seduce you, sleep with you, but they are 'not ready' for a girlfriend. Funny, ’cause I’m pretty much filling all said duties except checking in on you! So, no fear my brother, it goes both ways."

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Ew. Check in on you? Whatever.

boudoir

pop the question

"What is the most exciting thing that I could possibly be doing right now to enhance my long-term, inner
joy?"

Owen Waters
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And no lame answers, like you haven't seen anything good today.

neck muscles

cool profile, i like the neck muscles in your priamary photo.

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The spelling is one thing, but neck muscles?

anyway

Whose permission do you need?

-- Alan Cohen

Loft Bed The Musical - Part Three

Yes, I did hit my head on the ceiling this morning, but it was worth it. I'm going to let it get used to its new home for awhile before I decide just exactly what I want to do with it. Probably involving the fabric on the floor, and a work space to go with the chair, and a spot for my yoga mat and trampoline so I can instantly use either one whenever I so choose. Patio lights underneath the loft. You know.

the lake house

The words "Live in the moment," were sounding in my head when the credits were rolling on this film. Two actors who understand that directive in their bones, making magic on the screen. Be real, love, and live in the moment. That's it. Peace, out.

can I get an amen

You don't have to justify the good that flows to you; it is a given. You are of more value in the joy of your cross-stitching than in the struggle of your ironing. --- Abraham

that is next, right?

There's nothing you've ever done, Debra, that I haven't significantly done for you. Not buttoning up your shirt, not brushing your teeth, not finishing your sentences. Not your first job, not your last job, not the friends you've made in between. Not the money you've earned, not the money you've spent, not the home you now live in.

Your part was the simple part. You thought of what you wanted done and you willed yourself to move, which was all I needed to orchestrate more miracles than Bill Gates has dollars: flexing your muscles, spinning your sentences, infusing you with inspiration, and weaving circumstances and players together so that you could come alive in the vision you held onto and moved with.

I say we keep it that way.

Keep moving -
The Universe

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I'm even helping you read this, Debra, holding you up in your chair and all, and next, as you start visualizing, I'm going to be reading your mind... That is next, right?

eventually

If you keep asking, eventually someone will say yes.

-- Alan Cohen

got your game goin' on

Your joy factor will remain constant as you are continually refining your ideas of what you want, and that’s why it is so important for you to get everybody else out of the equation. They’ve got their own game going on; they don’t understand your game. Give them a break; stop asking them what they think. Start paying attention to how you feel. Joy will be yours immediately, and everything else that you have ever thought would make you happy, will start flowing, seemingly effortlessly, into your experience.
--- Abraham

No, Victoria, there is no bogie man

Resistance is about believing that you are vulnerable or susceptible to something not wanted and holding a stance of protection, which only holds you in a place of not letting in the Well-being that would be there otherwise. There is nothing big enough to protect you from unwanted things -- and there are no unwanted things big enough to get into your experience --- Abraham

talk to the hand, mom

so few

emotional scale

It's 10 o'clock - do you know where your feelings are?

Throughout the day, would you be able to guess with fairly high accuracy what your emotional range has been from hour to hour, moment to moment?

Where would you estimate you spend your emotional currency in this grid?

I thought so.

If you're like me, you might be a bit surprised to discover in which clusters of feelings you are actually spending most of your waking hours.

And if reaching and dabbling and shining's purpose is to feel good, most of the time, about most things, well, some of us have some work to do. I know I did.

When I discovered that I was dipping down into the lower half of the scale more often than I thought I was, that was an eye-opener.

I realized that my efforts to move toward the upper registers by reaching for what resonates probably weren't going to be as successful as they might be if I weren't self-sabotaging with emotional cement weights.

Ah, but awareness is your friend in being able to orchestrate change. And when resistance roars in and tells you that it's stupid to do this exercise, you'll know you're on the right track.

Print out the pdf version of this chart several times and put them in places you'll come across them naturally throughout your day. If you don't have a color printer, you can color in the wavy lines yourself if you want.

Or determine some tracking method that works for you, and use it to indicate what you are feeling and when. Draw a grid over the wavy lines to represent your day by the hour. Or just write down what time it is when you come across each sheet and circle where you are at the moment.

Or do nothing at all, except pay attention. That's reaching, too. Just the choice of wanting to know, over blissful ignorance, is enough of a shift to start you on the northern migration, which is where I want to be.

Care to join me?

be a holy troublemaker

ARIES (March 21-April 19): Don't take your time, Aries. Move double
fast and strategize from many angles, always thinking ten steps ahead.
Please don't keep your hands clean, either. Play with the muck and roll in the
mud and learn from the dirt. And don't you dare be measured and
balanced. Instead, be an intense and relentless initiator of decisive
actions. One last thing: Don't play nice and sweet. Be a holy
troublemaker, a noisemaker who breaks the silence and keeps it broken.

~Rob Brezsny

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