Every once in awhile, I plunge back down for a reorientation with the depths of the emotional scale, down in the bowels of negative emotions that I know do not serve me or anyone else, but in the heat of the moment, they just are.
The thing is, once you've stabilized your spot in the upper registers, this reorientation thing doesn't take much to feel like the world as you know it has collapsed--even just a little bit of contrast in an arena that you aren't used to anymore does that.
So I vented and fumed for awhile, reached out and spoke to someone who talked me down from the dizzying heights of irrationality, and eventually I felt much better.
Even that small amount of time and energy spent in that space was exhausting though. And counterproductive. I know better. But the experience was great for shoring up boundaries and resolve in many areas, so for that I can appreciate what happened.
Today I am checking out another spot for my Meetup group to meet in, and I took the first step in making an appointment as a new patient with a new health care provider. The Right-Brained Biz Plan book arrived in the mail and I've started reading the exercises that will start using the clippings I've got from magazines.
Feeling like I'm on track and moving in the right direction.
Thanks! That meetup will be both fun and beneficial, I can tell.
Posted by: Jeff | Sunday, February 13, 2011 at 12:35 PM
Here's the link so you can see for yourself:
http://www.meetup.com/thoughtchaperone/
Posted by: Blissmonger | Wednesday, February 09, 2011 at 09:24 PM
What is your Meetup group?
Posted by: Joyanddisquiet.blogspot.com | Wednesday, February 09, 2011 at 08:51 PM